where did i use up all my luck ?
was it the japan trip or.... ?

i don't know when did the bad luck streak started but before i knew it, i started to fail every test i took part in. first it was the prelims, then it is the exams. now its the driving test.

despite the rain and striking the kerb, i thought i did okay.  give and take a few mistakes, at most its 16 points, i figured.
but the tester labelled me as changing lanes abruptly, sharp turning, nearly causing accidents and etc. he later slapped me with a 28 demerit-point record and ask me to re-take the test again.  that's  spending money again. not to mention i have spent close to 3000 bucks already and the figure keeps increasing.

there isn't god in the world of reality.  what's the use of praying to god and going to temples? humans are just lying to themselves. time and time again, this is solid proof that praying isn't going to help at all.  and what did the instructors say ? they say i'm okay. they say i shouldn't have a problem passing. but what happened? why didn't they tell people the solid truth ? lying isn't going to get anyone anywhere.

what a letdown. i thought i could pass but... *sighz*

Here we are, in the best years of our lives.
With no way of knowing, when the
Whee’ll stop spinning cause we don’t
Know where we’re going…
And here we are, on the best day of our lives.
And it’s a go, lets make it last, so cheers you
All to that, ’cause this moment’s never comin’ back

I used to know her brother, but I never
Knew I loved her, ’till the day she laid her
Eyes on me. Now I’m jumpin’ up and down,
She’s the only one around, and she means
Every little thing to me

I’ve got your picture in my wallet, and your
Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,
Whenever I think about you,. I’ve got
Your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so
Long since we’ve been talkin’ and in a few
More days, we’ll both hook up, forever and ever

And here I am, on the west coast of
American and I’ve been tryin’ to think for weeks of
All the ways to ask you, And now
I’ve brought you to the place, Where I’ve
Poured my heart out, a million times, for a million
Reasons, To offer it to you
I used to know her brother, but I never
Knew I loved her, ’till the day she laid her
Eyes on me. Now I’m jumpin’ up and down,
She’s the only one around, and she means
Every little thing to me

I’ve got your picture in my wallet, and your
Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,
Whenever I think about you,. I’ve got
Your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so
Long since we’ve been talkin’ and in a few
More days, we’ll both hook up, forever and ever

I used to know her brother, but I never
Knew I loved her, ’till the day she laid her
Eyes on me. Now I’m jumpin’ up and down,
She’s the only one around, and she means
Every little thing to me

I’ve got your picture in my wallet, and your
Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,
Whenever I think about you,. I’ve got
Your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so
Long since we’ve been talkin’ and in a few
More days, we’ll both hook up, forever and ever

　　最近的自己
　　心情低落，萎靡。還有就是小鳥胃！爹又去大陸了，沒人替我張羅三餐。幾乎餐餐都是五顆水餃，最高紀錄是一碗雞肉和粉吃四餐！

　　最近通勤或通學的時候常在思考的事情
　　沒有。因為不用通勤也不用通學。

　　最近著迷的事情
　　也不能說是著迷，應該說是太無聊了。最近換了桌布和佈景主題，還下載了SFC調整字型。另外我終於開始用申請了很久的aNobii。想看的人可以在About頁找連結。

　　最近經常聽的音樂
　　Portishead的Third和The Cranberries的Stars。兩者類型完全不同。

　　最近經常見到的人
　　除了弟跟娘，就是牙醫了。

　　最近常看的電視
　　沒有。偶爾轉到HBO等電影頻道看看電影。一直都是這樣吧。

　　最近不自覺就會跑去的地方
　　沒有。幾乎都待在家。

　　最近希望能實現的願望
　　希望我的筆電沒事﹍﹍！

　　最近經常使用的話
　　都是一些罵人的話。

　　最近熱愛的顏文字
　　一直都是「XD」。

　　最近盤旋腦中的歌曲
　　CocoRosie的South 2nd。

　　最近感到衝撃的事情
　　美國AIG集團發生財務吃緊。因為我全家都保了南山人壽。

　　最近做過的夢
　　我沒有夢。因為我就是一個夢。

　　最近最在意的人
　　弟。因為我最近常亂發脾氣，但他還是對我很好，讓我有點過意不去。

　　最近變得喜歡的東西
　　家。以前待個兩天就受不了，現在竟然想要一直住家裡。

　　最近覺得自己很閃閃發光的時候
　　穿上剛買的American Apparel外套，是很鮮艷的黃色。

　　最近想吃的甜點
　　都不想吃。

　　最近想要的東西
　　BOTTEGA VENETA的短夾。

　　最近笑得最開心的事情
　　和弟一起想Fear Factor的關卡。

　　最近讀了覺得有趣的漫畫
　　好久沒看漫畫了。

　　最近別人送你的東西
　　PASCHER的皮手環。非常喜歡。

　　最近讓你興奮的事情
　　體重一直掉。

　　最近吃了覺得很好吃的東西
　　娘做的涼拌青木瓜。醬汁是用百香果做的，很對味。

　　最近花大錢買的東西
　　買了很多American Apparel跟UNIQLO。

　　最近在意的事情
　　我怎麼覺得類似的問題很多……。嗯，希望可以找到好工作吧。

　　最近開始喜歡的名人
　　好像沒有吧。

　　傳給五個人
　　自認很久沒更新部落格的人，請識相點拿去寫吧。XD

"Ute på vägen igen", Ulf Lundell (sorry you need to be Swedish to get this one)

"Home", Michael Bulbe (yes, it's power ballad from a Canadian, but I like it anyway )

Stay Tuned!

Oh, I might check up on actor Aaron Yoo soon. He's very new to acting and he is a Jersey-man!

Stay tuned!

why ?

because i have only just found out the title of the song after listening to it for weeks.

my first impression was the catchy tune and a few bits of the lyrics - here and there. but when i saw the actual lyrics, it was then that i found out that lyrics is so beautiful and romantic. aww~~~ <333

キセキ
作詞作曲：GReeeeN

明日 今日よりも好きになれる
溢れる想いがとまらない
今もこんなに好きでいるのに 言葉にできない

君のくれた 日々が積み重なり
過ぎ去った日々 2人歩いた軌跡
僕等の出会いがもし偶然ならば 運命ならば
君に巡り逢えた それって奇跡

2人寄り添って歩いて 永久の愛の形見して
いつまでも 君の横で笑っていたくて
「ありがとう」や ああ 「愛してる」じゃ まだ
足りないけど せめて言わせて 「幸せです」と

いつも君の右の手のひらを ただ僕の左の手のひらが
そっと包んでく それだけで ただ愛を感じていた

日々の中で 小さな幸せ
見つけ重ね ゆっくり歩いた軌跡
僕らの願いは 大きな世界で
小さな出来事 巡りあえたそれって奇跡

上手く行かない日だって 2人でいれば誰だって
強がりや寂しさを 忘れられるから
僕は君で らら 僕でいれる から
だからいつも傍にいてよ 愛しい君へ

2人ふざけあって 帰り道 それも大切な 僕らの日々
思いを届けと 伝えたときに 初めて見せた 表情の君
少し間があいて 君がうなずいて
僕らの心 満たせれてく愛で
僕らまだ 旅の途中で
またこれから先も 何十年 続いていけるように 未来へ

例えばほら 明日を見失いそうに僕らなったとしても

2人寄り添って歩いて 永久の愛の形見して
いつまでも君の横で笑っていたくて
「ありがとう」や ああ 「愛してる」じゃ まだ
足りないけど せめて言わせて 「幸せです」と

上手く行かない日だって 2人でいれば誰だって
喜びや悲しみも 全て分け合える
君がいるから 生きていけるから
だからいつも傍にいてよ 愛しい君へ

最後の一秒まで

明日 今日より笑顔になれる
君がいるだけで そう思えるから
何十年 何百年 何千年 時をこえよう
君を愛してる

TRANSLATION

I’ll love you more tomorrow than today
These overflowing emotions won’t stop
Right now I love you so much
I can’t even put it into words

The days you’ve given me accumulate
The days that have passed, the paths we walked together
Whether our meeting was coincidence
Or fate, just the fact that we met
Is a miracle

We walk close together
Making our eternal love tangible
I want to always be smiling by your side
“Thank you” and, ah, “I love you”
Just aren’t enough, just at least let me say
I’m happy

Just having your right hand
Wrapped up
In my left hand
Made me feel your love

We found the little happinesses in each day
In the slow path we walked
Our meeting is just one small thing
In a big world, but just the fact that we met
Is a miracle

Even on days when nothing goes well
Just being together cheers me up
And I can forget the bravado and loneliness
When I’m with you, lala, I can be myself
Just stay with me forever
My beloved

When we fooled around on the way home
That was one of our precious days, too
And when I finally got up the courage to tell you how I felt
The expression on your face was one I’d never seen before
There was a pause, and then you nodded
Our hearts are filled with love
We’re still on our journey
Towards the future that will hopefully continue
For dozens of years

Even if we lose sight
Of tomorrow

We walk close together
Making our eternal love tangible
I want to always be smiling by your side
“Thank you” and, ah, “I love you”
Just aren’t enough, just at least let me say
I’m happy

Even on days when nothing goes well
Just being together cheers me up
And I can forget the bravado and loneliness
When I’m with you, lala, I can be myself
Just stay with me forever
My beloved

Until the last second

I’ll be smiling more tomorrow than today
Just being with you makes me feel that way
Ten years, a hundred years, a thousand years
Let’s spend the time together
I love you

You are

if you cannot be.

That's the paradox.

Ini na ako pagasuwat kay bukog da lamang. Bukog na waray unod. Pero an imo bukog na gilubong sa lupa mokutaw ug mubukad.

Ug an ako gugma mulutaw ug musuksok gihapon sa mga gamot nan kahoy na tapad sa imo lubnganan.

I had finally aged a year again. Now, I am one year older, or mature. With age catching up, the mindset changed a lot, from being extremely childish to someone who is serious about her future. Although, age is just a number, there are still meanings to it.

So, by adding a little spice to my birthday, I shall list down 18 birthday wishes! Greedy, I know, but that like what I say “Nothing is ENOUGH.”

My wish list:

1. WORLD PEACE!
2. My family, friends and I will be happy and healthy always.
3. Every day is a beautiful day.

4. My life to be smooth sailing.
5. A healthy body and all tone up!
6. To be smart!
7. Being a good person by learning to be more hardworking and respectful.
8. Money is always enough, and it shall not be a topic that hurt people’s feeling.
9. To have good friends who will grow old with me.

10. Someone who will be able to guide me when I am lost.
11. To be able to work in the fashion industry.
12. To be able to tour around the world one day

13. Never to regret anything again.
14. To experience some love.

15. To have a collection of apparel from different brands.
16. Good karma to happen to me and my friends.
17. Less pollution and Singapore not to be so warm.
18. Humans will be kind towards animals. They are living things too!

It is not easy to think of 18 wishes. I am stuck at seven. Moreover, I made the wish in order, hoping them to fulfill first.

Birthday is just another day on my calendar where I can find an excuse to escape from the reality. This year is no difference. I have my share of happiness.

I will blog about them when I am free again.

Sayonara!

kung ikaw magpahulay gihapon diha sa ilalom sa gikaling nga lata;
basig ugaling dili na ka makahibalo ug subay sa naandang nimong agi.
basig ugaling mahutdan nakag kusog inig moambit na ka sa imong kaanyag.

maghulat pa ba ka ug bag-ong lapis, sama sa lapis nga napudpod sa mga gahi nimong kusog?

dili sa tanang agi sa adlaw makakita kag maayo nga siga.
dili sa tanang gamot nga imong maibot makakaon kag katam-is bisag wala ka naningkamot.
dili sa tanang hangin, imong masimhutan- humot,
ug dili sa tanang biris, makaporma kag maayong kurba.

busa ayaw nag katulog. kuhaa na ang habol sa imong kaluya.

I should be home in bed resting, or writing.

I should be at home reading and watching a movie.

I should be drawing and spending time with my family.

I should be home listening to my music.

I should be home.

But instead, I'm in school. Making up for the classes I have missed due to the blackout.

But I look forward to Saturday.

Then I can do the things I want to do.

Next week is the last school week.

I can hold out.

Stay tuned!

thank god i didn't choose to be with him - that was what i felt when i saw him yesterday. he used the same networking tricks he used on me and many other people many years ago. apart from that, he is really short and not handsome. his style of walking has never change, nor his hand gestures.

initally, i didn't recognise him until he came quite near to me at the bus stop. first i find him vaguely familiar, when i saw his face and then, his style of walking, accompanied by those hand gestures jolted my memory. throughout my bus ride, he accompanied two ladies and spoke with them endlessly. at the train station, i quickly walked and boarded the trains and he disappeared from my sight. thank god ! i never want to run into such a disgusting person again.

AND WHAT'S THIS SUPPOSED TO MEAN ?!
matters aside, i dreamt of sho/aiba last night. i couldn't remember who was it, but it was some weird story of us being sent to a musical theatre for training, where a family lived and performed there. there was some form of urgency as the show has started and we still couldn't remember our steps. the troup leader was very angry with us and he scolded us but we are just too playful to be bothered with him.

i guess koichi's SHOCK and his musical stuff has some effects on me... but what about sho/aiba ? i don't know... maybe i just miss them too much.

AT LEAST, THERE'S SOME GOOD NEWS~

月刊テレビジョンにあったようで、

「不幸話は笑い飛ばせ！！堂本光一所長プレゼンツ　アンラッキー研究所（仮）」

NTV 10/25(土) 13:30～14:40

it was rumoured that Koichi is going to have a new bangumi known as the "Director Domoto Koichi presents Unlucky Laboratory"...and Koichi will be the director(?!) to laugh at all the unlucky stories? omg... why does it make him sound so evil?! (>_<)

but at least,WE CAN FINALLY SEE MORE OF KOICHI ON TV ? (^_^)\/

just to add on...i saw the covers for the Limited and Normal Edition of the new ENDLESS SHOCK DVDs. really really very pretty. can anyone scan a copy of the cover of the normal edition for me ?!

"Are you talking to me."soul.

"No,i talking to justin loo,singer from Hong Kong."Js.

"Lol,stop wasting your energy,you won't reply you since he din't know who you are."soul.

"I don't need him to reply me since I just trying to tell what I feel."Js.

"Yaya,whatever,don't make excuse when you say something wrong."soul.

"Wah!Even you also talk like that to me?i can't believe it,i guess only other's dun know who I am and will misunderstand what i talking about!"Js.

"Whatever, So what you trying to say here?"soul.

"I just mean to say I know what justin feel when he said something which doesn't meant that,afterall all misunderstanding him,just like he said Gary singing like a women."Js.

"Oh so?"soul.

"Suddenly i miss a song "welsome to my life - simple plan "

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like, what it's like
[x2]

Welcome to my life [x3]

"I used to listen to this song on the last time i get hurt,so long since the last time until now."

Dear Shane,

Keep in touch,
Dylan

　　於是我回家了。

Stay Tuned!

【創作1】對聯

姐姐：下午我在睡覺。

大叔：剛剛我在洗澡
　　　那橫批呢??

姐姐：什麼橫批？

大叔：下午我在睡覺, 剛剛我在洗澡, 你不覺得很像對聯嗎??
　　　真是幸福, 你覺得怎麼樣??

姐姐：為什麼會是真是幸福啊？明明就是陰錯陽差。

大叔：因為你悲觀我樂觀啊

【創作2】繞口令

大叔：所以我說, 你娘這樣多好啊, 節目多才是對的, 才不用管你們這些小孩咧....

姐姐：我這麼乖根本不需要管啊。

大叔：剛剛不是才說自己是壞小孩??

姐姐：是壞男孩。壞男孩是要應付壞男人。我是乖小孩。

大叔：現在是繞口令嗎??

【創作3】偶像劇

姐姐：你喜歡乖乖讀書的好寶寶吧？

大叔：我有給你這樣的印像嗎??
　　　我的前B, 好像沒有在學的耶....
　　　只有我是學生, 他也是學生的....

姐姐：哥越壞，弟越愛；弟越乖，哥越疼。

大叔：這是繼昨天, 壞男人, 好男孩的繞口令part 2嗎??

姐姐：哈，我有這個天份吧。

大叔：嗯嗯, 你應該可以去說相聲

姐姐：不不不，我口條不好。

大叔：那你可以演偶像劇
　　　演偶像劇的, 口條都不好, 哈

姐姐：你當男主角，我當女主角嗎？XD

大叔：我太老

姐姐：不會，因為這部偶像劇就叫《壞男人，好男孩》。XD

【創作4】三級片

姐姐：有些網友沒聊過幾句就見面了

大叔：那是約砲吧??
　　　那就跟拍A片一樣, 不用聊什麼啊
　　　聊反而怪

姐姐：不一定啊，說不定他們當天就在一起了。

大叔：你是說, 上完床後, 覺得很完美, 然後就約定在一起喔??
　　　這種台詞不好想耶...

姐姐：誰叫你想台詞啊！

大叔：我好喜歡他喔, 他好強, 好大, 好厲害喔, 所以我們在一起

姐姐：或是，他的●●跟我的●●很合耶！所以我們應該要在一起。

Have a lovely day!

Stay tuned!

i haven't been to such places anything in this year but some sort of realisation dawned on me now.
the beach or the sea, is a vast place. When people are angry or depressed, they head out to the beach, where the sea is. the rythematic sound of the incoming waves help calm the nerves. the constant winds cool the head and the visual vastness helps people to feel unimportant.

i feel that when people are angry, depressed or troubled, the only thing they see is themselves, the matter(s) at hand and the terrible effects the matter(s) brought. by going to the beach, people feel unimportant, and whatever issues they have will be seen as a small thing in this universe. they would have probably feel better.

if this is the case, it seems that mother nature has already provided humans with a solution in calming their nerves in times of unhappiness. maybe i should try going there once when i'm unhappy.

the world is big, very big... humans are so small when compared in size. however, the troubles and unhappiness seemed so big that it isn't enough to fit into the whole universe. that's probably humans and themselves ba.

its a funny thing though. in the country where i grew and live, the sea surrounds us but we never think to make use if its presence to our advantage.

sidetrack:
just found out that Ohno uses W62S by AU KDDI. just an average phone but well, if he is happy with it, then... links are found here:
http://www.sonyericsson.co.jp/product/au/w62s/ad/index.html
http://www.au.kddi.com/english/product/lineup/w62s/index.html

haiz.... have been wanting to change phone since july. my current phone isn't spoilt but i have been using it for almost 3 years. have been wanting to change to a slightly slimmer phone. can anyone sponsor me money to buy my 923sh ?

Chez Val Gal!

Maya's world is composed of small things. Small boxes, containing small objects. Beads. Wires. Notes. Lamps. Tiny tape recorders, emitting tiny, hazy sounds. Papers. Notes. Words, fragments of sentences.

Maya's world is made of small things, and she inhabits and populates it beautifully. Her 'Music Box' operates on two, inter-mingled levels: the physical and the verbal (or rather, that is what it seemed like to me). The artist enters the room (the performance takes place in various, "friendly" houses around town, quite an interesting idea...) from the side of the audience, and walks carefully towards a set of boxes disposed in the middle of the room. She wanders from one box to the other, turning on tape recorders, removing objects, displacing them, extending wires from one side of the room to the other, dropping the contents of her over-sized pockets to the floor, in calculated, precise gestures...

This is done while delivering a carefully-written text, whose main lines hover between biographical references to the artist's life (or not?), to members of her family's (or not?), and general reflections on the themes of woman, family, the house, the home.... The line between what is real and fictional seems blurred, adding in the process to the charm of the proceedings, and lending them a certain, queasy sensation of intruding on someone's private life/lives.

In addition to her impressive work as a performance/installation artist, Maya is also a seasoned dancer, and manages to introduce on several occasions during 'Music Box' dance gestures/moves. These are light and airy, and do not distract from the overall thrust of the performance, although they seem somewhat heavily informed by the work of Belgian "head-mistress/dance maestro" Ann Teresa de Keersmaeker. But then, I could be wrong.

Honorary awards go to the wonderful musical soundtrack, including tracks by Lebanese artist Munma, Japanese and French (respectively) electronicians Susumu Yokota and Colleen, as well as the Kronos Quartet and rockers Electrelane.