What tomorrow will bring,
I, too, know nothing.

But as I face uncertain future
This I know for sure:
In God I will endure;
In His love I’m secure.

Ayus!
Juni 2008

Johnny 's been messin' wid our 'eads, man.

Correcting that usage will be on my to do list.

Here, I am abstracting the framework by incorporating the correct Greek, abstracting the focuses by using polygon icons and abstracting the perspectives by using de Bono's thinking color code:

There you have it, a completely new take on the Mix Thirty-six.

Hey, Aristotle, Six Unities! Hey, Plato, Six Polygons! Hey, de Bono, Six Hats!

Yes, after a day's head banging, I switched when and where.

In the next post, I will be definining each of these icons. Now we can talk about System Logics, System Organics, System Mechanics, System Physics, System Cosmics and System Chronics with a sense that our terminology will migrate across disciplines easily if our audience has any understanding of Greek roots.

Probablemente no. Probablemente sea el mayor error de todos...

After you select the genre, you will need to fill in the campaign world. To do that, you can start with any of these topics from basic English -

• Who - the player characters (PCs) and non-player characters (NPCs) of the world
• What - relics, artifacts, tools, and other items of interest
• Where - geography, political regions, religious regions, economic regions, and so on
• When - ancient history, recent history, and current events
• Why - conflict, motivation, and other circumstances

Eventually, you have to answer all of these questions for your campaign, but you can start with any one of them and move onto the others.  Depending on your interests and access to sources of information, you will probably flesh out some questions much more than others. I love maps, so I usually have very detailed "What" in my campaigns. I create an atlas for fantasy campaigns and star maps for space campaigns. If I know the PCs will spend a lot of time in a town, or frequent it, I'll layo out the streets, then draw the floor plans for buildings they'll frequent.

I'm also a history buff, so I usually draw up a timeline to complete my "When". I find that based on the character histories the player's create, and the need to backfill information as the campaign unfold,s I will add more detail to the time line.

There is no right or wrong place to start. Start with whatever W-question interests you the most.

Tehát, a Higurashiba azért kezdtem bele, mert ott volt a cosplayer csapat, a When Cosplayers Cry, de csak videóról láthattam őket.Valamint kedvenc DevintArt galériáim is gyakran bővültek ilyen képekkel, de Beryl-chan volt a végleges(Már rég nem beszéltünk, de nem hiszem, hogy egy szia!mizunál többre is jutunk még valaha :().

Jó történetű anime, érdekes felépítés, sok kérdés, mi jöhet még?...

1983 júniusa.Maebara Keichii alighogy egy hónapja lakik Hinamizawában, máris rengeteg barátot szerzett.Mind lányok, név szerint Mion, Shion, Rena, Rika, Satoko.

A történet érdekessége, hogy arra a pár rohadt kérdésre nem kapunk választ, ami a megnézésre sarkallt.Mi Oyashiro-sama átka?Hogyan tűnt el Satoshi? Majd a Kaiban.Ugyanis itt a szereplők hátterét, Hinamizawa szomorú és megrázó eseményeit ismerhetjük meg.

Én Hanyuuból nem nézném ki így 5 rész alapján, hogy megátkozott volna valakit, de minden jel egy ismétlődésre, időcsapdára utal, ami végülis jó, hogy van, mert ha mondjuk valami enélkül történt volna meg valami, rossz lett volna.Tudni kell, hogy a napok ugyanúgy eltelnek, ugyanúgy öregszik a karakter.Legalábbis azt általam ismert verzióban.

Rena szerintem azért szerepelhet felnőttként a Kaiban, és azért élt tovább Oishii, mert akkor történt a Nagy Hinamizawai Katasztrófa, amikor ők elszállították Renát, és ezzel még a hurokban sem voltak benne.De most Rena két emberként létezett?Mert az "újrakezdésben" ő is ott volt.De ez még így is érthetőbb válasz, mint az összefüggések keresése.

Tetszett, hogy Rika már-már készült a halálára, és Shion esetét is mindvégig tudta.Sajnos itt sem a jó befejezést adta ki Rika visual novelje, pedig nyernie kellett volna.Ha nem vacakol annyit, hanem amikor a földön törtölgeti a szemét, akkor nem a haját kellett volna húzogatni, meg nagy lassan bemutatni a halála okozóját, hanem beadni neki.

Néha a legkülönfélébb kivégzési módok alatt gondolkoztam, hogy kinek jut eszébe ilyen, de a moe szereplők elég durván át tudnak alakulni.Tudom, hogy az első képen Mion van, a második pedig Shion egyik dühkitörését ábrázolja, de mivel szinte teljesen egyformák...

Akkor henekre bontott értékelés:

Onikakushi:Nagyon tetszett.Az utolsó két rész kellően izgalmas volt, bár itt is nehéz eldönteni, mi igaz és mi nem.Ha valaki hatchettel rohangál(akkormár szekerce vagy bárd, de én így hívom), akkor ahhoz ki kéne mennie a rendőrségnek, nem csak telefonálnia? Aztán az ütővel gyakorlás, na az...De mivel Mionék sírtak a végén, mégis az a megfelő, hogy hatchetes Rena nem ilyen óvatlan, és csak képzelte.Végülis, a 2. vagy 3. részben volt a dokinál, és injekciót kapott.De ha valami erős nyugtató is volt benne?Mert nem tűnik logikusnak ezzel az orvosnál bentléttel húzni az időt, anime aggyal max. csak a rendelőt mutatták volna, ahol mégtöbbet hall, majd elmegy XD Csak hangosan gondolkodtam, lol
Watanagashi:Még ez is tetszett, de a vége...Jajj.Komolyan mondom.A szöges résznél én is alig bírtam odanézni, de amikor a legvégén Keiichi odaképzelte Shiont-t, az igencsak win volt.

Tatarigoroshi:Ez volt az igazi Satoko-s chapter, aminek örülni lehetett.Plusz nem volt végignézhetelen vége XD Azok az ütésnyomok Satokon, miután Keichii megölte az ojisant...Hát, az horrorisztikus volt.De Kei-chan nem ölte meg, csak képzelte.Kapott egy kis gyógyszert.Asszem' a vulkáni gázok itt is befigyeltek.
Himatsubishi:Már a kis Rika sokat tudott erről az esetről, de 6-7 év alatt sem oldotta meg a rejtélyt.Ejj, pedig megspórolt volna jópár részt...Áá, nem.Nekem a Higurashi első helyen áll, mert érdekes, drámai és elgondolkodtató^^"
Meakashi:A Watanagashi magyarázása.Rengeteg titok kiderül belőle, például amikor Keichii beképzelte magának a lányt, akkor már mindkét Sonozaki halott volt.Szerintem Rika nem kattant be, de meg akarta állítani Shion-t(na igen, a nővérke jelmez nagyon illik hozzá), de nem sikerült, így inkább öngyilkos lett.Valószínűleg elege lett már a folytonos kivégzésekből.Elég nagy lelki teher uralkodhat rajta.Durva, főleg a szögek, de nagyon előre viszi a történetet.
Tsumihoroboshi:Rena-chan henje.De ide nem tudnék mit írni, amit nem a Renához akarok.

Karakterek:

Shion: Yandere karakter( bár alapból komolyabb, mint Rena), aki szerelmi bánat miatt öl.Hiszen Satoshi meghalt és nem lehetett együtt vele, ezért depresszív állopotba kerül és a gyilkolástól sem riad vissza.
Mion:Egy abszolút jópofa, vicces karakter, ő lesz a Sonozaki család vezetője, ha felnő.Természetes, ahogy a vezetékneve sugallja, ő is ludas ám...
Rena:Ő is yandere, de ő a családi élete miatt vált azzá.Először hirtelen felindulásból megölte Rinát, majd annak társát, vagy mijét, ugyanis arra a karakterre nem figyeltem^^" Miután a lelki világát bemocskolta ezzel, szinte depressziós lett, és nem tudta letenni a hatchetet.Az egész világot ellenségnek tekintette, de Keiichi visszahozta a cuki, kedves moe lánykát^^Egyébként szereti az aranyos dolgokat, és egytől egyig hazavinné őket^^
Rika:Aki többet sejt a dolgokból, mint gondolnánk.A komoly, érett Rikát szeretem, de ez a jópofizás, jókislányosdi már kezd az agyamra menni.Pedig cuki, de nem állandóan.
Satoko:Kedvencem^^Hasonlít rám, aranyos, szeretnivaló(önkritika gyakorlása :P).Ja, és folyton kieszel valamit Keiichi ellen.Ezzel talán azt próbálja meg pótolni, amit bátyja eltűnésével elvesztett.Szerintem a Nii Nii-t látja a fiúban.
Takano Miyo:Igazi ribi karakter.Ő az, akitől kiráz a hideg.
Keiichi: Én sokakkal ellentétben nem utálom, bár amiket a gyógyszerek miatt produkál...Komolyan.
Satoshi:Nagyon tetszett, ahogyan védte Satoko-t, és egy ilyen verés után én sem beszéltem volna Shionnal.De mi nézők, akik ismerjük Shion viselkedésének hátterét is, másképp lettünk volna.

A grafika enyhén szólva nem valami szép, de ezt asszem' észrevették, mert a Kaiban ki lett javítja.Hogy érzékeltessem a különbséget, itt van két kép:

De más, ugye?Ugye, hogy nagy a különbség?Ugye?

A manga szebb, sokkal szebb.

A zenére viszont aki panaszkodik, az elég furcsa szerzet, mert a soundtrack egy mestermű, ahogy a seiyuu-k is jó munkát végeztek.Az opening különösen tetszik, mert érzékelteti, hogy kedves kislányok voltak,  de valahogyan bűnbe estek.lol

A HnNKn igencsak bővelkedik cosplay fanserviceben.Vannak olyan ruhák, amikkel még nem lenne baj, de van olyan is, hogy az egész falu megbámulja főszereplőinket.Tehénfolt mintás bugyi és melltartószerűség, nyuszi és cicafülek, gothloli ruha, nővérke ruha, másik seifukuja, de még balerinaruha is hattyús úszógumikat.Igen, sajnálhatják, akik elveszítették a játékot, de a ránk, nézőkre nem biztos, hogy így hatnak.

8/10(Bár szerintem myanimelisten megkapta a tizest XD) A néhol unalmas részek miatt(Jajj, Tomitake és Takano meghalt megint, megint semmit se tudunk), de attól még érdekes módon a legjobb, amit láttam.Első helyen áll, és tudjátok mit?Lesz még egy OVÁja és azt hiszem egy másik sorozata!

Mindenki, akit megérintett eme mestermű, várjuk együtt a Higurashi Rei-t és az Umineko no Naku Koro Ni-t!

When she stare's at your mouth
[ Kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hit's you
[ Grab her and dont let go ]

When she start's cussing at you
[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]

When she's quiet
[ Ask her whats wrong ]

When she ignore's you
[ Give her your attention ]

When she pull's away
[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst
[ Tell her she's beautiful ]

When you see her start crying
[Just hold her and dont say a word ]

When you see her walking
[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]

When she's scared
[ Protect her ]

When she lay's her head on your shoulder
[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]

When she steal's your favorite hat
[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]

When she tease's you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesnt answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is okay ]

When she look's at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When she say's that she like's you
[ she really does more than you could understand ]

When she grab's at your hands
[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]

When she bump's into you
[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]

When she tell's you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]

When she misses you
[ she's hurting inside ]

When you break her heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]

When she says its over
[ she still wants you to be hers ]

When she repost this bulletin
[ she wants you to read it ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her

- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you.

- Tease her and let her tease you back.

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick.

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes.

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.

- Let her know she's important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain.

- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking babe?"

If you do post this in the next four minutes the one you love will :
•Call you.
•Kiss you.
•Love you.
•Text you.

What I'd love to see would be something like an undo/redo tree. I missed that for a long time, but the idea came up again when I recently saw this image on the GIMP UI Brainstorm, by Jan Rüegg:

It shows pretty clearly what it wasn't to say. Perhaps the options in the context menu would be really difficult to implement, like moving a branch, or a "leaf", but the general idea would be worth the effort.

I know that GIMP isn't meant as a replacement to Photoshop, but as Photoshop doesn't have this function either, this would be a clear advantage over that software. I'm sure many people would switch, or at least start using GIMP.

When I asked that on IRC, it started a big discussion, luckily not about if it's useable, but rather if/how it would be doable. It would make sense as a first step, as a pre-undo-tree, to implement saving history to the XCF file, but considering where GIMP is heading, it could be considered useless. GIMP tries to become a non-destructive editor. (Although it would be still cool to see your steps one by one.)

Nevertheless, for actions like drawing, selecting, filters and so on, it would be cool to have something similar to a undo-redo-tree. Sure you can argue now, if that won't be going to be wasted development time of code what will be thrown away later, but it really depends on what GIMP wants to become. We'll probably have to wait. And hey, why not become versatile?

This week's blog from Pastor Richard: I'm standing in the face of impossible financial hurdles. Each hurdle to be crossed was set up by God. I did it under His command.

Most people would be under extreme stress, but not me; I've been in this situation before. One of the reasons I'm so comfortable is that I see a cloud the size of a man's hand. If you are a Christian, you recognize the spiritual metaphor: it refers to Elijah the prophet in the time of extensive drought in Israel. He saw the small cloud on the horizon and quickly ran. By the end of the same day, there was an abundance of rain. This past Monday, I faced extensive deadlines that required a quick influx of finances, and even with that, the meeting of deadlines appeared to be impossible. Later that morning, I opened up my email and found out that the funders of our project would not even be in San Francisco that week. Suddenly, at that moment, the bottom dropped out. The cloud disappeared from the horizon, and I was faced with what appeared for the moment to be an empty future.

There's a fascinating wonder that I have found in emptiness. It's that phenomenon of a clean sheet of paper and a newly sharpened pencil. When all the options are off the board, the re is only one inevitable choice left: the hand of God. I have heard many people say that you should never wait until the last moment to trust in God. That obviously wasn't said by someone who's had much experience trusting in God at the last moment. Situations collide in the chaotic natural world. For the divine domino effect to occur, whatever the case may be, the situation or circumstance must reach the point of critical mass. The point of critical mass is when a situation or series of events can make a dramatic change. God uses these points to show His glory in the earth. Sure, they are heart-stopping, jaw-dropping, and in general, uncomfortable, but they are necessary for His glory to shine through.

The first time this happened to me, on a major level, was when I had scheduled a crusade in Africa. Unknown to me, the outdoor event was to occur in the middle of the rainy monsoon season. The missionaries who were there when I planned the event with the stadium said it was their mistake and that we needed to reschedule the event. But, my group in San Francisco had already spent nearly $100,000 on plane tickets, hotel reservations, and other travel expenses. The Lord spoke to me and said, "I will stop the rain."

We arrived in Africa a week before the crusade and were greeted by sunshiny clear skies. Wow! Were we happy! God had answered our prayers. But three days before the crusade, the sky broke and the bott om of heaven dropped out. It rained so hard that the main street in Monrovia had two feet of water and there were canoes paddling down the walkways.

The opening day of the crusade finally came. Members of my staff came to me and said, "Richard, we took it upon ourselves to go downtown and find a basketball stadium that's roofed, where we can hold the crusade. Let's hold the service today in that stadium, and if God stops the rain, then we'll come back to the sports complex." I knew this group of my own people did this because they loved me dearly and didn't want me to lose face; but I also knew that if I didn't walk into that sports coliseum and face my God, I would never know for the rest of my life if He speaks to me or not. Remember, Paul said if any man draws back, God finds no pleasure in him. This was my moment. If I drew back, for the rest of my life, trusting God would be a fuzzy gray area. I would live forever in mediocre, cautious, conservative, bland, adventureless living. I replied to the group, "We're having the crusade tonight in the sports complex. I'll meet you on the stage at 5:30."

I was greeted onstage by one African pastor, and it was raining cats and dogs. Suddenly at 6:05, Doug Lanza, our worship leader came running through the stadium and said "Richard! Come look!" He showed me a hole in the sky where the sun was shining through. It parked itself over the stadium, and by 7:00, everything was nearly dry. Nearly 7,500 people flooded out of their houses and to the crusade by the phenomenon of God stopping the rain.

The bottom dropping out of everything is a prelude to God showing His glory. The key element is your decision to stand, when you've done all, just stand. You stand there, committed to what God told you to do. You don't move, and even more important, you don't mentally calculate your situation. One Saturday last year, I woke up in bed, and God spoke to me saying, "Richard, I'm going to show you where the source of unbelief comes from and how to stop it. Your mind has a default program--it's the way you inevitably think about everything. The default program in your brain is unbelief." Man, when God said that to me it blew my mind, because I knew it was the answer! Every time the bottom drops out of a situation and I try to reason it out in my mind, the result has always been unbelief. What God was saying was: don't think about it. Just trust that God has already figured it out.

Back to what's been going on this last week. The bottom drops out. I refuse to think about it. Then, I'm struck with a hemorrhoid, which hurts so bad, I have to leave the pulpit in the middle of a Sunday service. The pain is excruciating. Then, I am to pray for a gathering that is involving politicians in San Francisco, and when I get out of my seat, there's a pud dle of blood left on my white chair. My daughters quickly try to cover it up, but they're too late, and many of the women in the meeting immediately know what the problem is. They come up to me after the meeting, and their strength is so encouraging. Let me remind you that the bottom has just dropped out of everything, and I'm in a position where I can hardly walk. Later that day I go to church and for the first time in my life since I was two years old, I am wearing a diaper.

We're in the first night of a conference with Timothy Snodgrass and the speaker for the evening was Steven Brooks. At the end, he calls for people to come up for healing. I rush forward, and when he asked for what was wrong, to the chagrin of my congregation, the surprise of the visitors, and the shock of Steven himself, I blurt out "I'm in so much pain; I have a hemorrhoid so big, I'm wearing a diaper." Instantly I fell on the floor, and was totally healed. As soon as the presence of God lifted, I ran to the bathroom, and experienced no pain for the first time in 3 days. What an incredible miracle! This didn't fix the bottom dropping out situation, but it set the tone that God is with me, and this miracle was just the beginning of the great things He's about to do. By Friday of the same week, one hundred percent of the timeline pressure and deadlines were completely removed. I'm sitting once again in the peaceful, grassy land of compliance with the will of God, realizing that everything is in God's will, and right on time.

The hardest concept concerning the Lord that I have had to wrestle with is that He is not like me. He doesn't think like me. His ways are so clever and complete that I honestly cannot quite comprehend them. This fact has convinced me that having a quiet mind is the only way I can handle the bottom dropping out. And to achieve the quiet mind, I have got to let my ego die, not calculate, and do nothing but trust like a little child sucking on a lollipop.

Richard Gazowsky pastors a church in San Francisco called The Voice of Pentecost, and is also president of Christian WYSIWYG Filmworks. He has directed the films, “Guardians” and “The Roman Trilogy.”

However, I do need the real outlet. I used to write every day. This will serve that purpose. I have a lot to say, but I listen more than I speak. This is my monologue, my public soliloquy. Read it or don't; this is not for you, it's for me.

Oh, and I adore Helvetica - that's the only reason I chose this theme.

"Slow down, the world isn't watching us break down
It's safe to say we are alone now, we're alone now
Not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver
I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence
So please just break the silence

The whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

And I'm longing, for words to describe how I'm feeling
I'm feeling inspired
My world just flip turned upside down
It turns around, saw that's that sound
It's my heart beat, it's getting much louder
My heart beat, is louder than ever
I'm feeling alive, I'm feeling alive

My whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
That's what you get
When you see your life in someone else's eyes
That's what you get, that's what you get

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you
This world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you "

I'm currently in love with Secondhand Serende's new album called A Twist In My Story.

My favourite song from their is the album title A Twist In My Story.

So anyway, an update on my life. Its been 3 weeks without my camera. Its been fixed for free even though it ws 2 weeks over its warranty. I just need someone to pick it up from the Seven Hills store. So many things i need to take a photo off.
Well now my life is like the way i want it to be. I don't like anyone anymore in that way which is a good thing because i can focus on other things. I find it hard to actually like someone more than a friend. Most time i don't like them like that but i like make myself think i like them but i don't LOL so funny but i don't do that anymore. Something i found weird that that after being hurt so bad and taking ages to get over the thing, it feeld like i wasn't hurt in the first place and it never happened. Thats what everything to me feels like. Its like i have no feeling and i feel numb. Its so weird. Its like when i like someone but after getting over the "liking" stage. It feels like you never liked them in the first place. What i hate the most is that sometimes i can't feel, its like i can't feel anything except hate towards others.

Anyway back to my crushing of older people, well 5 or 6 yrs older.
Is so FUCKING HOT! LOL

You’ve been there before, too. You stand in a grocery line and the bagger and the cashier chat with each other while they work. This situation makes it harder to connect with them, but I still try to talk, even briefly, and give them the Gospel in a tract they can read during their break or at home. The natural time in this case is when they are finished working and the cashier asks for my payment.

After I swiped my card and signed, I handed each of them a tract.

“This is for you, if you would like it,” I said. “It’s about Jesus.”

This is the minimum conversation I hold with cashiers, especially when I did not get to chat with them while they worked and when people are waiting behind me.

I did not run off this time, though.

“Did you guys watch the Opening Ceremonies last night?” I asked.

The three of us agreed that the drummers were awesome.

As I left the store, I remembered that the Olympics is a great conversation starter, so I have put some thoughts together on the Sower Tools site on how to use the Olympics to communicate the Gospel to others.

what: that would be this blog! i'm documenting my decision to make raw food 70% of my daily nutritional intake, and all the good things that are happening as a result.

where: that would be the san francisco bay area! i grew up here, and i was very happy to move back.

when: that would be the past two weeks, up until now, and into the future! i made the decision to start eating raw approximately two weeks ago (july 20th) and amazing things have happened since then. i want those amazing things to continue!

why: that would be the motivation! i started eating raw because i felt unhealthy, and now i'm writing this blog because i have a lot i want to say, and share, and think about out loud. 

how: that would be the complex one! it deserves a multi-part answer. 

how do i "eat raw" every day? i eat raw food for breakfast and lunch, and my snacks tend to be raw as well. dinner is wide open and i usually eat more traditional meals. 

how do i stick with it? by accepting it's not a diet, or weight loss program, or any other fad-associated activity. i had taken many nutrition classes and studied many dietary plans, but i still felt very unhealthy at the end of the day. so i did some research, bought some books, and discovered raw food had 2 major benefits: it's simple to prepare, and easy to digest. therefore, i have time to eat breakfast and lunch where i normally didn't before, and the nutrients hit my system almost immediately. it's a positive cycle, full of near-immediate reinforcement, and it is very inspiring.

how do i manage the blog? well, that's a work in progress. i have a lot of backstory to provide, but once that's taken care of, i figure this will be a near-daily writing experience. i hope to link to interesting websites, post good recipes that i find, and generally share the positive things i experience. 

in my next post, i hope to write a more narrative description of who i am, where i'm coming from, and why i'm eating raw. i've hinted at a lot of things here, but there just isn't time right now to delve into the details! but i'll have them posted soon.

love kittie

I remember staring at a bottle of detergent once, thinking "Where does that come from? It doesn't grow on a Tree, and it doesn't flow down from the mountain. But it must come from somewhere." And then you get your first notion of chemicals and stuff, and you try your best to understand how human beings can create a new substance, a new... material, for lack of a better word. Clothes, computers, soap, all those things that where a sort of material (liquid or solid) that did not grow wildly in nature but had to be made, created... from what? And because I had never heard of chemicals, in my mind there was this picture of scientists mixing earth and water and elements to get new materials. Isn't it amazing how 5-year-olds can get as far as the presocratic pluralists did?

Eventually, It came to me that elements were not nearly enough to make every different kind of material in the world. Maybe those elements were composed of smaller ingredients. Like, maybe earth was stone plus leaves or, like I heard sometimes, water was made of oxygen and something else. And what was oxygen? One of those little ingredients. But then it all came back to the beginning... those smaller ingredients scientists could use, where did they come from? there had to be one basic source for everything, how could all that be formed in the earth? Where they all different combinations of what's in the ground?

Even now I don't understand anything about elements and materials. The way atoms combine, the number of electrons... how can all of that make the difference between wood and boogers? I'm just as ignorant as I was when I was 5, I guess. Only now I have less time to think about all of this.

Maybe I dig myself up too deep into the rabbit's skin.